11:12pm
today's Visual Basic code is:
MsgBox "Sytnax Error! 'Car' not defined!" vbInformation, "Missing Variable"

i miss driving.
[here's the story...]

over two months ago, i got into a driving accident... skidded off the road.. lucky that no one was around me -- heck, i didn't leave my neighbourhood! no injuries, car suffered minor damages... but my dad isn't let me drive anymore, for an indefinite period of time... at first i thought that he was just upset about it -- CAA said that he had to be at the location before he could call it in -- but only recently i found out differently...

i was in another accident a couple months before that... rear-ended someone; ripped off a piece of his bumper... from that, my insurace almost doubled.. so, alright -- i can understand why my dad doesn't wanna pay the insurance...

i'd go to work, but my parents don't want me to work so long as i'm in school.. they want me to finish first... and fine, i can accept that, too..

i understand the reasons, but.. i still miss driving...

t's not even the driving, the act of driving... i miss the freedom to go places, at anytime... i used to live in scarborough, and i could take the bus at anytime in the day / or night, and only have to walk a maximum of 15 minutes... i live in northern markham now -- i can't go anywhere without waiting for a single, specific bus that takes forever when it not during the weekday rush hours (129A, baby!)... add to the fact that i live a good 15 minutes away from the bus stop, and the bus ride is another 25 minutes just to get into scarborough, and once i'm there it's another 40 - 80 minutes just to get to where i'm going.... getting to STC used to take me 25 minutes, from the doorstep, to the bus stop, to the station... now it takes at least an hour to make that same trip...

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i went out today... but i had to go home early, 'cuz my bus stopped running early... as i was passing Markville, i once again realized how much i missed the freedom i once had....

as if it wasn't already hard enough to see Jackie with the situation we're in [perhaps in another blog], not driving just makes it all the harder...

i'm just complaining... but it's not like there's nothing i can do about it...
i'm doing what i can to start driving again,
i'm doing what i can to see jackie...

and as hard as it's always been,
and as hard as it is to keep going...
i still do it...

jackie, no matter how hard it is...
we're still worth it.