Today's Visual Basic Code is:
MsgBox " Syntax Error in Brian(Prayer)! Arguement not understood by variable 'EveryoneElse.' " , vbInformation, "Cannot Compile!"

another "bright-and-early" edition of blogging...
running total of scarborough trips till my MetroPass gets me savings = 13 / 52
[had to get that out of the way....]

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ever feel like no one understands you? okay, well, everyone gets that; being a teenager doesn't help either...

i think what's worse is when you feel that no one wants to understand, or even cares to understand you... not only the pain and hardships you go through, but the joys and laughter you witness every day -- God's little miracles in everyday life...

i love prayer... and sometimes i want nothing else but to share the joy i get in prayer, in praise... does anyone realize how much it hurts -- how frustrating it is -- when you can't even share that with the people you love the most? the people whom you want to feel the same happiness -- the same basic joy -- that you feel?

i've made many compromises to get this far in my relationship with God --
   to learn as much as i've learned from my Lord,
   to feel how much i've allowed Him change me,
   to be as happy as He wants me to be,
   to do the work he has called me to do.

-- seven years, still learning, still going strong --

I've gone through most of my hardships alone: just God and me.

But don't think it was easy,
     don't think that i wanted to do everything alone,
         i had no choice -- who would understand, or even wanted to?
         no one cared, or no one cared to ask back then,
            because there's you.
     don't think that i can go back to that so easily,
         i've passed the point of no return a long time ago,
         i can't stop now,
            not for my sake, anyway.

i love prayer... not only because it calms in the midst of my own fears,
   not only because it brings me peace in a world full of scary things and happenings,
   not only because it's what keeping me from going over the edge,
   and not only because it brings me so such joy in praise....

if i really think about it...
i how much do i owe the Guy...? and his Son..?
only my life, and only a little advertising of Their work within me...
is that not my duty? and if i can't even do that with the people i love most..................

and to you who's made my life bearable and believable...
read this and tell me...

now do you get me?

"When two or more are gathered in my name, I am there in their midst." (Matt. 18:20)