I love 1-on-1s.

So I had a meeting yesterday with all the household heads. Sure, it was fun worshipping with you guys, learning much from jesse, sharing our take on service with eachother. Sure, I didn't get to share with you guys most the things that I felt I needed to shared with you (considering time restraints, etc.) -- and as a result was feeling quite ineffective as a leader by the end of the day. Throughout the meeting, I wondered if anyone felt as I did -- feeling ineffective when people don't take me seriously, like I was transparent, like I could be replaced.

Of course, that's not what service is about. Part of what all service is about is realizing that God designed me for the purpose of making him happy, knowing that I have a place in God's plan to keep the YFC community going, and being attuned to what my place is *in that plan. By not being able to share all that I had felt and thought about, I felt that I was doing my job -- one of the many that God had given me. It wasn't a 'felt-totally-useless' kind of thing, just an so-much-more-I-could've-done' kind of thing.

I was preparing myself for long the bus ride home so i could reflect on that, pray about it, and hope that I could be more 'useful' the next time around.

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...I love the Duque's, don't you? They'll drive you into Markham if they have to. Well, they didn't have to drive me home, and i declined when they offered a ride at first, but... that doesn't mean the gesture goes unappreciated.

Household Heads, 1-on-1s are fun! I had the longest 1-on-1 with the Duque's about [____ (insert YFC thought, opinions, ideas, goals, and visions here)] and [______ (insert normal teen-life / quarter-life crisis topic here)].

After a 20-minute ride home, inviting them in to chat for a while, and four hours(!) later, we traded sound advice, opinions, ideas... Maybe most rewarding was how quickly God used the Duque's when I prayed about feeling ineffective.

2003 was a year of GROWTH.
2004 will be a year of CHANGE. I can feel it on the horizon.

I love 1-on-1s? We should do that more often.