So you were curious?
So I thought I had today figured out (somewhat, anyway) -- like not going to school in the morning because i'm no longer used to learning at 8:30am. But dad woke me up to drive me to school; what am I supposed to do? Of course, by the time I get to school, I'm close to an hour late (morning southbound Markham traffic, gosh-darned!). So what am I to do? Plug myself upstairs in the student's center, and I'm still here.
Did some MP3 cleaning. Filenames, ID3 tags, etc. Still trying to find that Jason Mraz theme song; no luck yet. Absolutely Zero, The Remedy, Sleep All Day, Sleeping to Dream, One Find, You and I Both, So Unusual, and Too Much Food (plus more J.Mraz) still on the playlist; will look for more when I finish blogging.
When I finish blogging. As if there's anything for me to do right now. (Actually there is: like installing stuff on my hard drive for school. Ngeh!) No one's on MSN everyone has school and exams. And my next class is at 2:30pm Since I didn't go to class, my 3-hour break between classes just turned into 5 hours, and I'm only hitting the two-hour mark. I don't remember the last time I had such a horrid break between classes. Terrible! Horrible! Awful!
At least I'm going out after school (if I survive waiting til then -- or just surviving to 2:30pm, heheh)... least i'm going out with Jackie later. When was the last time we went out to do something, hon? Before Christmas? Patience, patience. Just remember, "in 5 years..."
I spent some time looking at my old webpage from my first semester (just now). Wondered if I'd ever write poetry I
could finish, and be proud of again. Remembered the rawness of my prose. Wondered if I'll ever fix my loose 35mm pictures (i.e., sort my pictures that aren't in albums). Wondered if I'd ever get around to scanning my more recent pictures, and posting my repetoire somewhere. Wondered if I'd get around to updating that old webpage, with new sections, new pictures, new poetry. Wishing that I had some webspace somewhere to post it. And I could upload the blog there, too.
Then I thought... for who? Whoever you are, thanks for being here. Really! Thanks for wondering about me. But there's no need for unneccessary limelight now. There's a reason that I haven't changed the template here very much; there's a reason that I use an unassuming handle like bobo929 everywhere I log in; there's a reason that my Xanga and Friendster and (*gasp*) Asianavenue accounts are all pretty much empty with minimal information. You can't accidentally find yourself here because you were attracted by asthetics: pretty pictures and backgrounds (of me, or otherwise haha), or the impressive HTML/Flash/JavaScripting. Sure, I might advertise a little through MSN, but... Whatever your reason is for coming here -- whether you're someone who has inspired me, someone who's pushed me and challenged me to do more or to be more (for the YFC community or otherwise), or someone who's just here out of plain curiousity... no matter how much time (or how little time) has passed since our friendship began, or how well (or how little) we may really know eachother... You can't accidentally find yourself here without making the concious decision to type in the URL. You can't find yourself reading the real thoughts (and getting to the end of this post, haha) without caring in some way.
Then why do I spend so much time here, if my target audience is so small? Easy: It's part of my purpose. Why else would God give me an insatiable thirst to blog here and share my joys and fears, my thoughts and opinions, as a lot of us do in our AA/Xanga/Blogger, etc. pages? It's not only my human need to feel cared for and understood, but my spiritual desire to share my life message. Not for my own glory, but for God's. So that he can use, and continue to use me in the ways he's already designed me for.
Still don't get why? Find the January 18th post (Day 32): Don't waste your pain; use it to help others..
I've just noticed that I've been on this same post for close to 4 hours, with J.Mraz and J.Mayer still on the playlist. The current time is 1:15pm. The light from the setting sun slowly creeped up the table towards me. So bright in my face! I had to move. Yes, I think I can survive to till 2:30pm, but not without eating something before I go to class. I think i'll have a hotdog today.
Selected excerpts and paraphrases from today's reading of The Purpose-Driven Life:What On Earth Am I Here For? by Rick Warren -- Day 37: (you guessed it!) Sharing Your Life Message.
"God wants to speak to the world through you. You may feel you don't have anything to share with people, but that's the devil trying to keep you silent. You have a storehouse of experiences that God wants to use to bring others into his family."
"...Peter tells us that that we were chosen by God "to do his work and speak out for him, to tell others of the night-and-day difference he made for you." [1 Peter 2:9 (Msg)]. This is the essence of witnessing -- simply sharing your personal experience regarding the Lord. In a courtroom, a witness isn't expected to argue the case, prove the truth, or press for a verdict; that is the job of attorneys. Witnessess simply report what happened to them or what they saw.
"Jesus said, "You will be my witnesses," [Acts 1:8 (NIV)] not "You will be my attorney." He wants you to share your story with others. Sharing your testimony is an essential part of you mission on earth because it is unique. There is no other story just like ours, so only you can share it. If you don't share it, it will be lost forever... Your personal testimony is more effective than a sermon, because unbelievers see pastors as professional salesman, but see you as a "satisfied customer," so they give you more credibility."
Personal stories are also easier to relate to than principles, and people love to hear them. They capture our attention, and we remember them longer.
..."While it is wise to learn from experience, it is wiser to learn from the experience of others. There isn't enough time to learneverything in life b trial and error. We must learn from the life lessons of one another. "A warning given by an experience person to someone willing to listen is more valuable than... jewelry made of the finest gold. [Proverbs 25:12 (TEV)]
"...God uses passionate people to further his kingdom... {and} he gives us different passion so that everything he wants done in the world will get done. You should not expect everyone else to be passionate about you passion. Instead, we must listen to and value each other's life message because nobody can say it all. Never belittle someone else's godly passion: "It is fine to be zealous, provided the purpose is good." [Galatians 4:18 (TEV)]
"..As long as you know one perosn who doesn't know Christ, you must keep praying for them, serving htme in love and sharing the Good News. And as long as there is one person in your community who isn't in the family of God, you mus keep reaching out. The chruch that doesn't want to grow is saying to the world, "You can go to hell."
"What are you willing to do so that people you know will go to heaven?? Invite them to chruch? Share your story? Give them this book? Take them a meal? Pray for them every day until they are saved? Your mission field is all around you. Don't miss the opportunities God is giving you.
"...Is anyone going to be in heaven because of you?"
Gotta run to class. It's 2:17 on my clock!
*whew
posted by Brian at 2:17 p.m.
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