I miss people.

School has been keeping me busy for the past couple of months. Well, I wish i could say that. The truth is that I have been doing quite the opposite of "busy with school." I have about 5 weeks of Win2k labs that need to be done. Today. (For night school.) And now that I want to work, none of the 3 labs I can use are open. I have about 3-4 weeks of math that I need to study up on: my exam's next week.

Yet, I'm not worried so much. I just want to go out there and serve already. I miss working with people on stuff. For people. With people.

(I know there's more, but) Stuff that I remember since RLC:
Time Management. Scavenger Haunt. E2 Christmas Party. Planning sessions. Those darned E1 kids. Camp preparation [East 2 Music (e2m!)] and camp. Pre-con band [One Step Closer (osc!)] . Improvising activities and fun stuff for KFC everywhere in between. I miss that stuff. Planning and leading is where I feel right at home. I want so much to do something. The kind of stuff that says, "E2 is about Faith, Freedom, Fun, and Fellowship... So come on down: We wanna share it with YOU!"

And I wanna be a part of that. Whether it's up where I'm heard, or behind the scenes planning...

...I love doing that stuff because I know what it's all for -- Who it's all for.
I love organizing and sorting things -- even though one look at my room,
       or one look into my study habits may say otherwise.
I want to work with a group of people on some "impossible" YFC projects, because "[we] can do all things through Christ who strengthens [us]." (Phil 4:13)
       ...because I believe that it's a big part of my purpose.

And I have ideas. I've been doing some "idea-gathering." I'm sure people out there have ideas, too. Whether we -- in our service to Him... Whether we go through storms like the March camp (Let Go and Let God) and OSC, or things run as smoothly as Scavenger Haunt, I wanna see them all happen. Because it'll make us all a part of the history of YFC Toronto -- no matter how big (cluster/sector) or how small the event would be (our own chapter). I wanna be a part of something that's bigger than me, bigger than my needs and wants. So we can all share in what God has planned for us. (Jeremiah 29:11)

God has no hands but our own. I miss watching people grow in what God has planned for them. I wanna do more events that can make that happen for people.

As much as I'm comfortable leading and planning, I know God hasn't given me alone all the tools necessary to make those events possible. I always look to Scavenger Haunt in that. Long-term and Follow-through planning is what I love, what I'm good at -- the tools that God gave me to be a leader; visual and tactual "hands-on" creativity is not. And I know He did this so that we would depend on eachother's gifts...

Speaking of which, I miss following each other's leads. Envisioning the ideas from scratch; then, watching synergy in action: observing how one idea from one person creates 50 ideas just from adding another 4 people.
As much as I love leading others to God, I love to follow others who also want to lead me to Him.

It's only been just over a week since the last CFC / KFC function. Only just over 2 weeks since Pre-con. A month since camp. Only about 6 weeks since the name OSC was born, just over 2 months since we first got together as a band.

I miss everybody. I miss being in the thick of planning and organizing and leading.

But even the feeling of missing things... God's plan for me is here somewhere. Patience, patience.