Switchfoot - On Fire

they tell you where you need to go
tell you when you need to leave
they tell you what you need to know
tell you who you need to be

but everything inside, you know
there's more than what you've heard
there's so much more than empty conversations
filled with empty words

...give me one more time around
give me one more chance to see
give me everything you are
give me one more chance to be near you

when everything inside me
looks like everything I hate
you are the hope I have for change
you are the only chance I'll take

i'm on fire when you're near me
i'm on fire when you speak
i'm on fire // burning at these mysteries...

I'm standing on the edge of me.

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"Well done, good and faithful servant!" -the master of the house, matt25:21

I finished a book a couple of weeks ago \\ A Life God Rewards - Bruce Wilkinson.

Sometimes I wonder why I'm so fiercely loyal...It must be the cross that i bear. I don't think that i'll ever find this 'true love' that people speak of. At least... not in another person. And, at least... not by being fiercely loyal alone.

Being so fiercely loyal, especially with fickle friends who can change attitude on a whim... it just doesn't make sense. To me, or to anyone. There's no guarantee of... a 'return on investment,' for lack of a better term. But i'll get over it eventually. In the end, God will weigh my efforts in this life, and will reward me accordingly in the next one... i hope. I want the Master of the house to tell me "Well done, good and faithful servant! Come share in your Master's happiness."

None of this is making any sense right now, but i'll post it ayway... ahh well.