humbled.

I did ask for it, didn't i?
For me to be humbled by you;
humbled by You.
I got what You had planned for me 'til now;
and even things i've asked for.
like to be humbled.

I have been wrong all the while.
to place the burden of conscience on you.

I believed myself a man -- His man -- before my time.
You brought me to my knees again.
Where I belong.

Make me Your man with a child-like mind.
To stop looking for my own confidence, and
to start believing Your confidence in me.

...Am I a fool to hope? it goes both ways.
if it strengthens me, then no.
if it weighs me down, then yes.

I wanna settle for You, in You.

...courage, indeed.
the need to be humbled: fulfilled for the moment.
keep on going!
I know You're not through with me yet!

you've galvanized me to action.
the time to mourn is past.
you are out there somewhere.
You are in here somewhere...
I want to discover more of You
more of you.

...friendship/love means action.
and i was too damned absorbed in my own stuff to realize that.
too absorbed to realize that i was absorbed.

i know what you mean
i know what You mean

Your plan is that i live;
but I have merely been existing lately.
thank you for noticing.

...the year of Choice, indeed.
coupled with action, living is a choice i make today.

...who could love a man of inaction?
exactly.

i hope for you; not for the past, nor the past itself.
i've let that weaken me.
i hope for you; the future you(!).
that hope can only strenthen me.

Prepare me, oh God.. for that future you've planned.
Allow me to fear so that i can truly be courageous for You.
Although i have not felt You; you have been near to me all the while.
Let me feel the weight of Your arms again... embracing.
Let my hope be not in vain.