this is the first day of the rest of your life...

[7:21am] man, i just got into work, and already i wanna get out of here. feeling sick to my stomach, after pulling an all-nighter last night. couldn't fall asleep in the car like i wanted to. i'd throw up all over my keyboard just so that they'd send me home, if i didn't share it with anyone else for the night shift. i'm really not in any condition, mood, or motivation to be working right now.

[8:04am] sick to my stomach, chills... i never knew how... physically disturbing that "total and intentional emotional/relational withdrawl" could be. man, if this ain't gone after a good night's rest, which i may not be getting for another 2-3 days b/c of HH and practices... work'll sack me for sure. sure hope that i don't get any other physical symptoms... hope that the gas is just because of the gum i've been chewing.

[9:49am] condition hasn't gotten any better, but at least it hasn't gotten any worse. thank god that work is bearable today.

[10:57am] lunch in an hour. not really hungry. been falling asleep in my chair since i got here, so i do need to eat something. or sleep. that would help. will probably hafta skip salsa night so that i can catch up on sleep for the rest of the week.

[11:54am] almost lunch. things are dead here at work. maybe i can leave early today? and here i was, thinking that should've just stayed home and skipped everything. ...what a way to spend the first day of the rest of my life, just recovering at home. instead i'm zonking at my machine at work.

[1:47pm] didnt really feel like eating. still feeling the chills and stomach.

[3:13pm] my buddy got me a much need coffee. why didn't i start my day with one of these things.... although it's making the gas problem a bit worse. coffee always does that.

...man. forgot to call weege at lunch. need to find stuff out.

[3:51pm] coffee ran out already. my eyes started blanking out. and i thought this stomach sickness would have gone away by now. the total and intentional emotional/relational withdrawl is taking it's toll. even when i go outside, i'm still cold. in 30 degree weather.