a man who will not hide, nor deceive pt. 3

"with tearful eyes, i see the sin that i afford..."
-the swift, "i need you"

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two conferences. it took me two conferences to get here. to own up to the thousand ways i hurt. to own up to the real reasons for hiding and deception.

i'm so damned good at wearing the mask!

i hope that one day she will forgive me.

how many times have i wondered, "could this be the last day to try again?" now afteer the conferences, how many times have i asked myself, "could this be the last day to ask for forgiveness............?

dear father, must i still hide, even though i have no intentions of deceiving myself any longer?