Switchfoot - Let That Be Enough // order to the chaos

wish i had what i needed to be on my own
'cause i feel so defeated and i’m feeling alone
and it all seems so helpless and i have no plans
i’m a plane in the sunset with nowhere to land

and all i see - it could never make me happy
and all my sandcastles spend their time collapsing

let me know that you hear me
let me know your touch
let me know that you love me
let that be enough

it’s my birthday tomorrow. no one here could know
i was born this thursday - twenty-two years ago

and i feel stuck watching history repeating
oh, am i just a kid who knows he’s needy?

let me know that you hear me
let me know your touch
let me know that you love me
let that be enough

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of course i miss the hugs. pretty much all girl-scents anger me, because i don't have one now. ...at least there's no regret. oh, i was ready, and confident. and willing to try again. not unsure of the future anymore. and while the less tactful say, "well, it's her loss," it's my loss, too.

...and if i didn't get to meet up with her again, in the most recent of times... i'd be in total chaos. i'd've hit my "yearly" winter depression a few months early. it's always about timing with you, isn't it?

you help to bring order to the chaos. you truly are a queen like others say that you are.... in all your grace and majesty. there's just no surviving this coming season without you!

...they're almost magical, these beads on a string............ our life, our sweetness, and our hope. if knowing you through these beads can bring peace to my heart, hopefully they can bring peace to the world someday... one person at a time.

in the way that you're already showing me.

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happy brithday, brian. every year has always been more challenging than the last... and more memorable. and meaningful. i've always been here. you know i want the best for you, like the rest of family here.........