the dessert in my fridge talked to me...

it said, "chocolate cherry fondu."

...and then i found another. "lemon meringue parfait." what a relief.

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things i did differently this year:
actually went out for my birthday. yfc/sfc is fun; especially nowadays.
spent my birthday money on myself... all at once.
played pool 4 days straight. it's my new-old hobby / new money pit / escape.

now that september's ended, i wish all the recent new relationships the best. you'll be alright, if it was just for st. patrick's day.

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as a wise man said to me recently... time reveals all. i'm learning now that time has nothing to do with healing, but only revelation. the revelation that we are all hanging by the mercy of God and what he wants for us...

...oh, it's humbling. but it's what i asked for.

dear God, with aquaintances and close friends being called back to you... will I be able to do all that you ask of me with the little time i have left in this world?

oh, Jesus....... i don't think i'm ready to go yet. not the way others have done in recent months. i don't know too many people up there. and when others pass on, who would say to me, "brian, you helped me get here?"