...and so a thought-out blog deserves a thought-out response (for posterity's sake)

posted here.

[to those neighbours thinking you might commit suicide -- falling 1 story down will not kill you... except maybe if you land on your head.]

this is a big blog with lots of big keywords. fate, sentimental, naive, mistakes and regrets, dignity, expectations... and so a thought-out blog deserves a thought-out response:

no, i have no idea where you're coming from, but from your words............... i feel that you are ever closer to finding that 'peace' that we're all looking for and hoping for........ that you have realized time-and-time-again -- even despite whatever good/bad/ugly circumstances and/or shifting emotions that you have witnessed (yourself, or on others)... and whether those things happened recently or long-past... despite those things, you've realized that -- ultimately! -- God has a plan to make good from it... that you have reached a point in your faith where you HAVE faith! That same faith that the greatest heroes of the Bible had, amidst the chaos of their world back then. (Maybe you prayed for that gift of the holy spirit (faith) when you first went through camp? iunno.)

...and when you look up at the sky and see whatever stars shine in your eyes (through all the light pollution) -- that's when you see how perfect God has made everything... and how much focus he puts on us. into molding us out of Love for his purposes. even despite other people's imperfections and faulty actions. or even our own. and that's why you feel peace amidst the chaos of this world...............

and you're right: nobody can go back. ...but knowing what we know NOW... would we really want to? ...because we both know it's in the circumstances and crazy emotions that God allowed for us.... it's those things that have refined us.

...of course, i could be waaaaaaay off with all this....
otherwise? you're not alone with that sense of peace... it's the most reassuring thing.

ps: stace, you're awesome. yay for stargazing! =)