since that dang strike ended... and now that i've finally received all the (updated) course outlines for the semester (in all their curricumlum-compressed glory!! ..... =s) i'm still very-much afraid that i am going to fail. if i fail from more than 2 courses this semester -- i'll probably be suspended again for another 2 semesters. there's one course that -- if i fail it (again) -- i'll be unable to continue from my program altogether.

god really delivered today, though. i had a (quote/unquote) "mid-term" (WTF? mid-term on week 12???) test today on my worst subject this semester (2nd-sem. electronics! *cries*) that i didn't know about until 30-minutes before it started. i've never crammed so hard in my life...... not that any of it made much difference (although i know that there was ONE question that i wouldn't have been able to answer otherwise)...

thankfully, it was only 36 multiple choice questions... and that's where i thrive. i know we have to strive for excellence when it comes to school, but sorry -- all i could do is just pass on this one. i know i got my 60%. [no friggin' way am i going to let myself hang onto a credit by a thread-of-a-50%]

...i hope.

dear god... you know i am afraid that any more failures will only further delay the plans i had for myself.... despite mistake and sin, please be my strength and courage. no matter if it's a pass or fail, i have faith in the knowledge that you will use the experience to someone's benefit! whether mine, or another's.

no matter the outcome, i know you have a miracle just waiting to be revealed!
no matter the outcome, i know you that are guiding me to be more in-line with your plan!

...and how could ever go wrong with that?